IT IS TIME FOR
INSECURE WRITER'S SUPPORT GROUP
To find out more about this group,
(The Ninja Captain)
In the last few days, I was contacted by a co-worker from my past. It was great to have a chat and catch up. After a little conversation the subject of me having written a book was brought up. From word of mouth, she knew that I had written a book and expressed her excitement at my accomplishment, which was very nice to receive. Of course I brought her up to date, telling her I had actually written and published two. She was very pleased and called me a dark horse, keeping this side of myself a secret.
Before our conversation was finished, she had all the information she needed to find my web site and how to purchase a copy of the books from the web. I was feeling quite proud and happy that she had taken an interest in pursuing my pieces of work.
Afterwards, I found myself feeling somewhat insecure about someone I had known very well in the past reading my books. A number of questions surfaced in my mind which made me feel vulnerable. Would she like them? Would she see me differently, after reading them? What would her reaction be to the content inside? Next time I catch up with her, would she treat me differently, after another facet of my personality is revealed to her?
Writing and publishing is in itself a great achievement, and I should be shouting it out to the world, but instead I feel vulnerable when people who know me read my work. I much prefer to keep this side of myself secretive from the people I have close contact with.
This month, I am asking my fellow writer's to help me overcome this insecurity, by sharing similar feelings and to let me know if any of you out there feel the same way. Have you ever found yourself thinking thoughts like mine?